Growing Up

I have a feeling over the next few years I'm going to write quite a bit about growing up.  At the age of 24, a lot of things are going to be changing.  Weddings, houses, babies.  It's crazy.  While I don't see myself anywhere near old enough to encounter these things, I find my peers taking these steps.

In the last year, I've  attended 3 weddings, and was in 2 of them.  I know that I'm now at the age where all of this begins, and will attend many more weddings over the next couple of years.  Last week I stood up as Maid of Honor in my best friends wedding.  This weekend we toasted my sister and her husband on their 1st anniversary.

Seana and Bobby... married 8/27/2011

As a single woman in my mid-20's, it's tough watching all my friends pair off and take these steps.  Not to say I'm not extremely happy for them, because that's not the case at all.  But, at the moment, I only have one other single friend.  Everyone else has been with their significant other for years.

And then come the babies.  J, one of my closest friends, has 2 adorable kids. I love spending time with the 3 of them.  But at the same time, its tough for her to get away without them.  Same with my sister.  My niece is 7 months old, and pretty much the cutest thing on the planet (I may be slightly biased).  My sister is only 22, and already has a family and a fabulous life.  It's hard not to be jealous.  She never seems to have time to return a phone call, and I don't see her or the baby nearly often enough. I don't want to sound bitter, I know that she's busy, but I miss them both, and hate only seeing them a few times a month, especially because they only live 25 minutes away.

I mean, isn't she precious!

Here I am, at 24 years old, working a job that has nothing to do with my degree, struggling with a load of debt (to get said degree I don't use), and living at home with my parents.  In the last couple of months I've gone from being that person in a steady serious relationship, who lived on my own, so where I am today.  But when it comes down to it, I'm happy with where I am.  The decisions I made were difficult, but there were what was best for me. I'm not ready for the lives that my friends have. I'm just starting the adventure of being an adult.  I'm not quite ready to grow up yet.