Exercise and Weight Loss

I started weight watchers in the middle of April, and have successfully lost 15.6 lbs.  I was able to do this with zero exercise.  I made some serious changes to my diet, and by simply removing a lot of fatty foods, and making common substitutions, I found it to be quite easy.  I didn't have to give anything up completely, and found that I can do almost anything I want in moderation.  I was also extremely lucky because I love to eat fruits and vegetables already, and always have more of them in my diet during the summer, when all the delicious fresh produce comes out!

However, I am at the point where something has to change.  I've gone down 2 sizes, and for the first time in a long time, I'm somewhat happy with my body and how I look.  But I'm only about halfway to my goal.  At this point, in order to get to the point that I ultimately desire, I need to start factoring in some exercise. 

The problem with this is that I hate exercising.  It's not as much the act itself, as it is getting the motivation to get there.  I work 10 hour days, and when my commute is factored in I have a 12 hour day.  I get home and I'm hungry, and exhausted.  The last thing I want to do is go and work out.  I am the queen of excuses.  During the day I get these bursts of energy and motivation, but by the time I get home those are gone.  I can come up with numerous reasons why working out just isn't possible. 

It's time I change that.  I'm looking into joining a gym that's on my way home from work, so I can't go home and change my mind.  I want to want to exercise.  Not just to look better, but to feel better too.  I'm not in shape in the slightest, and one of my goals for the year was to be able to run a 5k.  I started the c25k program, but stopped, because I wasn't comfortable running in my neighborhood (another excuse, regardless of the validity).  I said I would start back up when I moved back home, but that never happened. I did have a gym membership, but I used it for two months and just wasted money while I paid for the rest of the year.

I want this time to be different.  I want to be successful.  This weekend, I'm going to look at the gym, and if they offer what I'm looking for, I'm going to join.  And then I'm going to go.  Because if I can't incorporate exercise into my life, then I can't accomplish what I want to do, and I will never reach my goal.  It's not just about the number on the scale... it's about how I feel about myself, and my body.  And being fit is a big part of that.  So there is no try this time around.  I won't give up like I do with so many other aspects of my life.  Because this isn't just some knitting project I can throw in a drawer and ignore.  This is my life.

Starting for me

I'm not quite sure what I'm doing here.  I'm not sure if anyone will read this, or if I'll even ever write anything worth reading.  But I guess I don't care.  Because this isn't about everyone else.  This is about me.  A place where I can talk about my issues with my weight and body, my anxiety, my insecurities, and how I face the world.  But for the first time in a long time, I'm facing it head on.  I'm not standing on the sidelines watching my life go by.  I'm living it. 

I'm very inexperienced when it comes to this whole blogging thing.  I honestly have no clue what I'm doing. So there's a good chance that I'll change things around once I figure things out.  This could end up being more of a journal than a blog.  It could just turn out to be a place for me to put myself out there, how I feel, and how I deal with things.  But its there for me.