Online Dating and moving on

When I first broke up with Mike I decided to take the first step into the world of online dating.  I wasn't looking to jump into anything serious right away.  But I realized that I had to put myself out there in order to move on.  When we broke up for good the second time, I reactivated my account.  

And surprisingly, I find it exhilarating.  The last few weeks have given me the opportunity to look at all the things that were wrong with my relationship, why it ended, and what I really want in my life. I'm looking out there and seeing that there are so many guys that want the same things.  Guys with hopes and dreams and goals for their lives. 

Right now I'm using okcupid, which is a free option for online dating.  I found it to be the best option out there.  I've taken the initiative and sent some messages, and I've had some guys message me.  I haven't set up any dates yet, but I've had some conversations that were, to say the least, interesting.

I originally decided to give the free option a chance just to see what's out there.  I wasn't ready to look for something serious.  Then I got back together with my ex, and the second time it ended, I had a lot more closure, and was more confident.  I'm glad we got back together, because it allowed me the opportunity to really realize a few things.  And I have trully moved on.  Sure I have my moments, we were together for a year and shared a lot together, but for the most part, I'm glad that its over.  I think that when I do miss something, it's that I miss him, but I don't miss our relationship at all. 

I'm ready to try something new.  I've never really dated before... Mike and I were in a relationship within a week of meeting each other.  And I've always lacked a confidence when it comes to meeting guys, and putting myself out there for someone. But for once, It's all about me. I can be picky, and I can wait for a guy that makes me feel special.  I think that I'm pretty awesome, and I deserve nothing but the best.  I'm trying to be more confident, and to let everyone out there see who I really am.  I forgot for a little while, but I've found myself again, and I'm ready to share that with the world.